Okay folks. So this is my first time at doing a blog, so we'll see how this goes. I have no idea what to do this about. So like always, I'm just going to let it flow.
So first off, for those of you reading this who don't know me. I was born and raised and currently live in Arizona, and love the 3 digit temps. Most people think I'm crazy for that. But I really don't like the cold weather or snow for that matter. I'm currently unemployed so can't talk much on that. I am going on 5 months of sobriety from meth and pot. I've been doing drugs since I was 18. My drug of choice is pot of course. Meth sorta got thrown in there during time. I have also tried cocaine and ecstasy and didn't like either one of them. Cocaine I just didn't feel it and the ecstasy made me feel like I wanted to be nice to people. Which I guess is supposed to be a good thing. But I like being able to feel all my feelings and emotions. Negative and positive both. I do have a partner who I have been with for almost 3 years now. He is currently incarcerated which has not made our relationship easy at all, but I do love him and I am waiting for his release. Also please note that the subject of his incarceration is not open for discussion. I am a very open minded person to almost anything and everything. However I can not stand and will not deal with ignorant and closed minded individuals. My mother is a very big part of my life as well, she is the only parent I have. We left my father when I was 15 years old due to his abuse to my mother and I both. My father put a gun to my head when I was 11 years old for telling him that I hated him. And due to this, I am very big on locking people up who abuse children. NO child should ever lose their sense of security and should never have to go through any traumatizing experience, that may cause them or inflict upon them any kind of mental trauma or disorder. I support any and all people and organizations against child abuse and animal cruelty. To continue, I do have a cat that I have had for 11 years now. Her name is Lightning, but everyone calls her Ms. Thing, due to her attitude being just like her daddy's. Her daddy being me. And yes, to most people I do have attitude and a lot of people seem to think that I can be a real prick and asshole. And that's fine. I pride myself on standing up for myself and others, and not taking anyone's or putting up with anyone's bullshit. I tend to be offensive sometimes, crass, blunt and to the point, but I don't believe in "beating around the bush". "Beating around the bush" is for jacking off. Oh and for those of you who missed it, I am gay, queer as a motherfucker. But I can't stand faggots. And yes I know that's wrong of me, cuz to each his own, but faggots are what cause gay men to get a bad name. And I do believe that Homophobia is a HUGE problem in our society. As if there isn't enough problems in the world already. And finally I guess I will end this part with some of my likes. My favorite colors are black and hunter green. My favorite artists are Marilyn Manson as number one of course, followed by Rob Zombie, Madonna, and Lady Gaga. I love horror and thriller movies and any movie by David Lynch. I also enjoy reading Stephen King and Dean Koontz. So that's just a bit about me. Now on to the rest of this.
Well it's Nov. 5th and 10 more days till my 34th birthday. Man I'm getting old. But at least I don't feel it. Except for my little toe today. Which I stubbed and it hurts like a motherfucker. Plus on top of that I pulled a muscle in my neck and back so I can't really turn my head or lift my left arm. Thank god I jack off with my right. Oh god, I sound like I'm falling apart. Ahh... Chocolate. YUMMY!!! Anyways, so it seemed to be an eventful week, I had an HIV test done and it came back negative, YEA!! And I will be going back on Monday to do another. For research purposes. And will be getting paid $25 to do it. The company is testing a new product that they will be trying to bring out on the market to do home HIV tests. I will be doing the test and then they will draw blood and test to see how accurate the test is. And hey, it is for a good cause. Anyways, I also had my first group therapy session this week. It was fun I guess. At least there was eye candy there to look at. And that's important ya know. LOL! We discussed emotions, and how they affect us emotionally and physically. And ways we might find to cope with negative feelings so as not to hurt ourselves and those around us. I have 9 more group sessions to finish up what is required of me. What fun that will be. But at least it will be done and out of the way. I was supposed to do community service today, but woke up in a lot of pain and didn't feel good at all. So I will be trying to make it tomorrow. Which will be at Double Butte Cemetery. We'll be cleaning up the grounds, trimming trees, pulling dead and old flowers, etc. And once I finish tomorrow I'll still have 364 hours left to do. Sounds like a lot, but it could be worse. So I'm happy with what I got. On another note, I have been having issues with a friend. And I'm trying so hard to have all the patience in the world with him. I've been told by many of my other friends that all I have been is patient with him. Any other person who has every treated me like he has I have kicked out of my life without a second thought. But for some reason, I feel really attached to this person which makes it really difficult to drop him out of my life. And the harder part is I really don't want to drop him out of my life. He is a very cool person. And has a big heart. But sometimes, he's not in the right state of mind and let's other things get in the way of his thinking an judgment. So I have let this situation just play out in god's hands. Only god can let me know the right thing to do with him. And so far it has not been to kick him out of my life. So I will continue with our friendship until further notice. Well folks I think that's it and I will end here for now. Till next time......
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